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Kimi ni Aitakute

Sun Jun 1, 2008, 6:27 PM
  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: "Lapis" by Gackt
  • Reading: "Blood Noir" by Laurell K. Hamilton
  • Watching: Lethal Weapon 3
  • Playing: Wii Fit
  • Eating: Koala's March
  • Drinking: Vitamin Water Raspberry Apple
With everything that's going on with my best friend, I realize even more than I used to that I don't want a relationship. He has been scaring the shit out of me all week.


I've been crying with him because I'm afraid I'm going to lose him. Doesn't he see that I've been there for every one of his major break ups? That I'm not going anywhere? Why can't he see? Doesn't he understand that if he dies, part of me dies with him. I lost Jake, I can't lose him too. Losing Jake killed a large part of me. I think about him every day, missing him everyday. I can't bear the thought of losing him as well. We've been friends since before we were teenagers.
How can those years be thrown out and mean nothing?
Why give up?

Don't you see how lost I am without you? Don't you understand why I cry for you, cry with you? A part of me is breaking as you are. I'm dying because you're hurt and nothing I can say or do will make you feel better. I feel helpless. I can't be there physically to comfort you, though my words aren't much comfort either. I'll never be good enough. Never good enough to heal your broken heart, put a smile on your face, or brighten your day with just the sound of my voice. Useless, helpless. What can I do? What do you want from me? Please tell me because I'm lost without you. My heart aches knowing that right now, you're lying in bed, crying and there's nothing I can do. I want to take away all this pain. I would trade my happiness for your pain, just to see you happy. I'm always there, hiding in the shadows, when you need me. I will never leave your side. I would follow you to the seventh circle of hell, to pull you out. I won't turn away from you as others have.


Kimi ni Aitakute <3
~Essa


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The Anita Blake Guilty Pleasures Comic has been released!

I can die a happy fangirl now! :w00t:


~*~*C O N S T A N T *~*~* R A M B L I N G S*~*~

To read my Anita Blake fanfiction called "Spirits of the Night", here are the chapter links.

Chapter 1 <~~~~~ [link]
Chapter 2 <~~~~~ [link]
Chapter 3 <~~~~~ [link]
Chapter 4 <~~~~~ [link]
Chapter 5 <~~~~~ [link]
Chapter 6 <~~~~~ [link]


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  • Current Residence: Indiana
  • Interests: anime, gaming, manga, movies, music, reading
  • Favourite movie: Moon Child, Returner, Last Quarter, Underworld, Resident Evil, Gravitation, ect.
  • Favourite band or musician: gackt, hyde, L'Arc~En~Ciel, lifehouse, hoobastank, NFG, bowling for soup, vent
  • Favourite genre of music: anything that suits my mood...no rap or hip hop
  • Favourite poet or writer: Laurell K. Hamilton
  • Favourite photographer: My Grandfather and Father
  • Operating System: Win XP
  • MP3 player of choice: Ipod
  • Wallpaper of choice: Gravitation, YNM, Gackt
  • Skin of choice: Jean-Claude or Gackt-kun *swoons*
  • Favourite game: Own:Bujingai, Lego SW, Castlevania, Jak series, Silent Hill 2, UT
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2, DS, Wii, or PSP
  • Favourite cartoon character: Yuki, K, Sakuma-san, Toya, D, Hisoka
  • Personal Quote: Bite me!
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thankyou for the :+fav: :D

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life's like an hour glass glued to the table
Thanks for the :+fav:!

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"I don't like having feelings." --Eric Northman

I am Allan A Dale in the Robin Hood Crew!
thanks :+fav:
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Cuando me di cuenta ya era demasiado tarde, aquel girasol estaba roto, la lluvia lo havía quebrado del tallo, ella era tan grande, tan alegre, tan "algo" que el simple hecho de verla tirada me daba lástima, desde ese dia no volvi a plantar ninguna flor.
When are there gunna be updates on your Anita Blake fic? Hmmmm? *Stares wide-eyed in anticipation* :O

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~I could write it better than you ever felt it~

Thanks to *Princekarr for my avatar. :-)
Chapter 6 of my Anita Blake Fan-fic is up. Thought you'd like to know. =)

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"You want to pat me down? I could rip you into pieces with my bare hands, and you're worried I have a gun?" Asher chuckled, a low, skin-prickling sound. "That is so very cute."

From "Burnt Offerings" by Laurell K. Hamilton
WEE!!! :glomp: *Hurries off to read it*

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~I could write it better than you ever felt it~

Thanks to *Princekarr for my avatar. :-)
Man, I love your Anita Blake fic! It's totally awsome, how long till the next update? Can't wait for it to come out, keep writing!
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Thanks! :glomp: I'm not sure about the next AB fic update. I kinda put it off for a while to work on poetry, but since there's an interest in it I'll start working on Ch 6. Thankies again!

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"You want to pat me down? I could rip you into pieces with my bare hands, and you're worried I have a gun?" Asher chuckled, a low, skin-prickling sound. "That is so very cute."

From "Burnt Offerings" by Laurell K. Hamilton
Hi there :wave:... nice stuff you got here.

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